i feel

another journey.
this is my book- my life.
it's 8.55am. supposedly I just awake.
but i'm not. i saw myself yesterday.
i saw myself when the time of my relationship end
i saw myself when my world is starting to end.
i saw myself when the time i really seriously need someone by my side.
i saw myself when the time had stop.
i saw myself when i cry and pain and cry.
i cried not because im sad or upset.
i cried because i dont understand why it is end.
one man says- something that not meant to understand, is meant to accept.
if only i hear it early enough.
so i be there, for a soul.
a soul that just got hurt.
a soul that just got heart broken.
a soul that really needed someone.
a soul that believes it will be eternity but it's not.
a soul that in love so much but the love return no more.
i dont feel a thing, yet.
what i had in mind at that moment is, i should be there.
i should do something. i should be prepare. i should be ready.
because i understood. because i been through.
my body move itself. its like programmed.
without my mind thinks, without my heart feels.
i dont know this is right or wrong.
but all i know is, i should be there.
because i saw myself. and i am there for myself.
i can see that i am there for me.
at least this time, 'myself' in her not going through alone...