realize

another journey.
this is my book- my life.
i'm a human. i have emotions and feelings.
other than that, i have 1 pair of eyes, 1 brain and 1 heart.
with this 3 stuff, i analyze things.
im not expert. im not any specialist.
but this is my life. i know my life. i know myself. i know me.
i have been seeing alot; signs.
signs of human behavior. signs of human emotion. signs of human respond.
this humans, around me. surround me. and with me.
i knew eventually there's certain thing gonna happen to me when i notice this signs.
and it does. perhaps i dont want to believe the signs that i noticed.
it's just hit me. and i fall. and i hurt.
certain things still happening to me.
i try to hold myself. not to go back to the old me.
fortunately, im still the same new.
im a human. im new me.
doesnt mean im perfect.
doesnt mean im better.
doesnt mean im worst.
doesnt mean im damage.
i just changed.
there's things i unsure.
i need to be very clear of whats happening and whats gonna happen.
i dont wan to make the same mistake.
even-though i feel nothing, and i dont give a damn of most of the things.
i just wanna be safe, unharmed, unhurt and wishing for a good cause.